Bowling was TUFF lastnight. Alot of smoking going on. I even made the decision to just have one. Just one. JUST ONE.
BUT..............after bumming one from one of the guys, I just carried it around for a while thnking about you guys. Put it behind my ear, like a pencil, and ended up in my car with it. It's in the center cubby. I feel like Superman when he explained about the first 'Chrystal' that 'called to him'. It's 'calling' to me.
Don't worry, I won't smoke it. It's actually kind of cool. It's like I can look at it and say screw you pal, You're gonna sit there and be good. From lastnite to this morning it's kinda become a game.
I even started to make excuses for having 'just one'. I was rationalizing in my head so many excuses it would make your head spin. Stuff like, "I'll just smoke until my e-Cig gets here".
I'm still going OK right now but it's getting harder. This morning is Saturday. And Saturday is really slow here in the office. I usually sit out front on the bench, read the paper, drink coffee, and SMOKE. :upset:
