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Originally Posted by UFN Wish
The paycheck is for actual worked hours.
The blind girl story made my jaw drop. That's crazy. I guess it could be way worse. I guess with me just being single and alone and no one to encourage me or help me with my problems is really getting me down. I am embarrassed that my car says FU BICH on it. People point and stare. These hardships are not making me they are breaking me. I feel like a failure. I worked at a bar two days this weekend because it was a holiday. I can't get these people to see what a great bartender I am without people calling the establishment or sending the owner an email. They have some bartenders who suck there. I don't understand why they want to keep some of these people. I am good at everything I do. I do good deeds all the time. I bend over backwards for people. Why can't people see what an amazing person I am? Why does life have to challenge me at my weakest point in my life. I just want to pack up and move somewhere else and start over with life.
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I will tell you - running will not help. For awhile, you will feel good, and then when shit hits the fan where you move, you'll want to run again. Don't run from your problems, stand up and face them head on. I want to run all the time - I know how it feels.
I have been where you are (stuck in what feels like a little box of hell) and thensome - it CAN get worse, so please for your own sanity do not ask how because the Universe is a jackass and will show you
Everytime I want to run away - I listen to this song and it reminds me that no matter where I go - I am still me, and I still have the power to kick this life in the ass and make it my bitch
Just focus on one thing at a time - baby step your way through and eventually you will find the light at the end. Sometimes, no matter how hard you try - it keeps getting further away, but you just have to keep going. (Just keep swimming
).
I'm still trying to swim out of my little black hole after 4 years - it takes time, it feels like it's going to kill you - but don't let it.
You seem to have a good inner strength - you are confident and have faith in yourself (just based on things you have said) so that's a huge start - don't doubt yourself, ever. Doubting yourself makes it harder to keep moving and makes you want to just sit down and quit - I've quit way too many times and nothing good ever comes of it.
Also - always remember:
"You have brains in your head
You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself
Any direction you chose."
~Dr. Seuss~
Steer towards the sun girlfriend.
