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Originally Posted by Airjoker
Last night my dad was doing his usual workout and was doing some jump rope, about 30 mins in to it I hear him fall on the ground, and my mom screaming. I run in the bedroom and see him collapsed on the ground not breathing. I perform CPR until the fire dept. arrives and they give him a shock, loads of medicine, and compressions for 40 mins. Is heart would start beating again so on 1-25-11 around 11pm they announced my father dead, possibly from a massive heart attack, he was 43, my mom 39, my brother 13, and me 16. My mom and my grandma (my dad's mom) have been continuously crying for the last 10 hours and I feel completely hopeless. This year has seemed to turn for the worst, this is the year for SAT's, ACT's, and college applications and is one of the most important years in my life for education and this has added lots of stress. I seriously have no idea what to do anymore.
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Wow, I haven't been on this site in months and your post is the one that caught my eye. At first I wasn't going to reply, but then I felt that I should....so to answer your question....
....you move on. You pick up the pieces, and each day put your right foot in front of the left, then the left in front of the right and you keep going. Some days you will feel like you have to lift each leg with your arms to get them to move, but do it.
Others have told you to be strong, and you need to do that, but that doesn't mean you have to be strong alone. Stay close to your family, as someone else already recommended let your school know about the tragedy, you will probably want to get family counseling as well.
Being strong doesn't mean you can't cry, that you can't be mad, that you can't experience the loss and void from losing your father, that you can't question "why," you can and should allow yourself to experience all of that, it's part of the grieving and healing process.
My thoughts and prayers go out to you, keep reaching out to your friends like you did here, and then you'll know exactly what you should do next.