hey man, you'll surely be in my prayers. i don't know what's going on in your life & it's none of my business, but it's definitely, in no way, too big for God. just listen deep inside & you will feel Him guiding you in the way towards recovery. a lot of times, we get so bogged down with "what am
i gonna do?" & "how will i get
myself out of this?" the most useful solution i've found to to pray & trust God to see you through. also, another thing i've found helpful is good counsel. find someone you trust as a spiritual authority or equal (not necessarily a minister... a close friend who has a strong walk with the Lord is sometimes more helpful because they know you better), and share your story with them so they can support you with love and prayer. if any of this helps, great... if not, oh well.
just know you at least got people on here supporting you!